Alright, sad to say, this will be unofficially my last post on this love bar.. Reason being, I've broke the commitment which I've promised at the very first day I created this blog. So since the commiment was over, it's time for me to change to a new site!

Its been a great 320 days on this site but I've decided to move on... :)

But fret not... The link i shall provide... And p.s this blog will be converted to somekinda bitching blog for myself and me pals so if you wanna know what's wrong with the world in our eyes... Keep watching this space... ^^

New blog ---> http://datazanc.blogspot.com

Hope you all will stop by and keep tagging and reading... Really appreciate it... Thanks alot guys, you're the best!

However guys, you don't need to change the link.. It can still remains as http://datazanc.blogspot.com because I'll be coding the redirecting html for my new blog address onto this blog.. Meaning, all you need is to click on this blog's link and it will bring you to my new site... Great ya? But will be working only after my new blog is up. ^^





Till i see you on the other blog,



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Oh well, here to do some updates! ;)

Danny, vincent and i went swimming in the morning. Was having fun actually but i injured my hand. Damn it. Hahas... Lost quite alot of blood though.. ;)

And for the entire day, danny was targeting a girl. We known her as the "orange bikini". lolls? Danny tell us that he gonna get her number before he leave the swimming complex. So me and vincent dared him, if his attempt is successful, lunch will be on us. Well, i'm not really interested about making friends with that girl. I merely wanna dared danny! lolls... Lunch will be alright because me and vincent had some business in our hands so money isn't a problem. Everything lies on danny... =)

So guess what? He really approached that girl! Wow... Hard to believe danny will do such a thing... Hahas.. Vincent and I followed behind danny and see what's up in his mind and what he'd do to that girl.. He talked to her like, schools? age? and things like that.. Oh ya, forgot to mention, the girl was around with a friend. That girl asked danny to have a slide-ride with her. So the both of them went up. Left and dump me, vincent and the other girl behind. Damn it. Alright, the girl talked to me. She asked me if danny wanna know her friend or something. lolls? Asking the obvious right? Alright, did talked to her and found out quite alot about her. She's quite socialable too..Oh ya, her name's call Mei Chin.. lolls...

OMG... Now it sounds like i'm approaching that girl. I'm not, i'm not! I'm not interested in this kind of things. I merely helping danny. Hahas... Piang eh.. So, before we left, danny really gotten her number. Hahas... Still, i'm not interested. geez.. ^^

Will be going to escape with vincent, aloysius, xin yi, shu yu, wee teck, haziq, hong yong and cheryl! Must be fun ya?

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Valerie called me from perth just now! Hahas... Didn't talk much too... She just told me the flight number and arrival time on sunday.. Hahas...

So btw, caught 2 movies in the past 7 days and here are my 2 cents worth...

JAMES BOND : CASINO ROYALE

Well personally, pretty damn good actually. Not bad for daniel craig's first effort as bond. Tastefully done and well executed, enjoyed myself very much... All in a cool show.

LIKED: Texas hold 'em poker! Damn I love that game and this movie's just the thing to get more people starting to play it. So if you all ever want some friendly competiton just give me a ring.. =)

DISLIKED: No gadgets. Bloody hell! What's a bond without gadgets?

Q: Here you go 007, this is a pen...
James: Does it shoot laser beams when you click it?
Q: No, it's just a pen but you can write your enemy a very angry letter...

See what I mean...

Anway, moving on...

HAPPY FEET

Haha. Very very amusing programme. Highly entertaining and almost inspirational, ending kinda shaky though but all in a great animation flick for the whole family. EVERYBODY DANCE NOW!!!

Ah well...

Had a blast today. did realignment in the morning and then headed out with bro, grace, hazel, my mum, mum's friend and aloy to town! Not really a great experience but not a bad one too... Hmmm... Cos according to aloy, grace and hazel are half dead and according to me, they're half alive... WHAT'S THE DIFFERENCE!?!? hahas.. Had a japanese dinner at cine and everyone else went home except me and aloy. Took the train to city hall went to marina square's mac, dorothy's workplace. She served us. And she took the wrong order! How hilarious la... Kept apologising... Alright, aloy and I sat down and chat for a very long period of time. Well, was like about... 3 hours? Hahas...

Took bus from esplanade to outram. Went into the train station after that... Piang eh, it was damn crowded... But still able to find myself a seat. However, saw a girl who's pretty familiar to me. A guy standing beside her looks familiar too... DAMN. Remembered. That girl is jeslyn and the guy beside is my childhood pal, joseph.. Alright, did talk to them and find out some of their follow-up. Jeslyn studied in henderson sec and joseph's in dunearn sec currently.. They're couples now.. Hahas... Really out of the picture of my imagination man... Quite surprised also.. And reminds me of my old days too... Hahas.. Wish them the very best ba... =)

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AH! ok, let's see.. today!!

Went to the clinic for check up this morning. Rashes on my fingers and legs. Doctor told me that it was cause by the cough syrup. Alright, screw that stupid syrup with stupid side effects. My finger's like damn red and itchy. Really can't stand the itchness but I can't scratch it! The more I scratch, the more rashes it'd appear. Haiz... "Let's see how it goes for a week." Speaks the doctor. HELLO?!?! If every doctor speaks the same thing, anyone can become the doctor too! Wooooots~~

Chilled out with valerie in the afternoon for one last time before she leave for perth for 9 days. Went to raffles city. We wound up eating desserts at swensen and it was damn crowded! Waited like 20 mins before we could actually get in. Ordered a cup of iced latte each and a bowl of ice cream. Hmmm... 5 scoops? Well, 2 cups of coffee and a bowl of ice cream, cost me 40 bucks!!! But what the hell, the company was good.

After that, took bus 36 outside swissotel. It was still quite early before meeting her mum at the airport. Her flight's at 8:45pm. But the time we board the bus is, 3pm? Alright. Reached terminal 1 at 4pm. Her family were yet to reach. Bloody. Which idiot will actually check in 4 hours before the flight? Nuts right? So at the meantime waiting for them, we went to ride the skytrain! To terminal 2. Went to a cafeteria at the second floor. Had some drinks there. And bloody, a jug of orange juice cost us $35. Really what the hell man... People have smart brains to get a great amount of profit, using this kind of method.. tsk tsk tsk.. Then walk to the plane viewing area walked around. Sat down and we took a light nap for like... 2 hours? She went to meet up her family at 7pm. I greeted her mum also. Then her mum misunderstood me as valerie's boyfriend and I was not! She told me things like, "nowadays girls and boys dating are very common... No need to paiseh la..." Things like that... Can't stand her.. lolls... But a friendly lady to social with though. =P

Well, after waving to them through the glass panel, it's when I realised how lonely is alone. Whatever. Called vincent and meet him up at clementi for dinner. After dinner, took bus home and we played blackjack on the bus. He kept winning and winning... Another weirdo of the day... =)

*ahem vincent ahem face ahem the ahem fact ahem okay ahem.. geez =)

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It's such a good fulfilling day yesterday! =)

Went out with chester and vincent. Supposed to go sentosa with their cliques but was called off as chester just came back from overseas. Met up them at jurong point instead. Saw xiu wei and gang there. Hahas.. Headed to marina. Played bowling..Well, that's a nice game. Had much fun with them.

Chester left us for home so Vincent and I went to orchard. Was there to look for danny, he's working there. Wanna have dinner or something with him but he's not free to do so. No choice, we went to clarke quay instead. Well, bet with vincent for dinner. We bet on, 'the one selling tickets at victoria theatre will be a *ahem* teacher!' We started walking from fort canning park and walked through the padang field. Finally came to the venue where my school's cultural nite was held. Indeed, I was correct! The teacher is.... *ahem* Merely my instinct and won a treat! lolls... Walked to fullerton hotel for drinks. Was about 8pm then.

Took the train to harbour front centre to collect the cake. Dinner at mac. Crapped alot there. Hahas... Alright, btw, I ordered the cake about 2 weeks ago! lolls...

Took a bus ride to vincent's place. On the way there, I was damn worried if the cake isn't refrigerated and it's gonna melt. That's an ice cream cake anyway. So wadever it is, still reached vincent's place safe and sound. =)

It was about 10:30pm then. Waiting for jerena's call. Till around 11:15pm, still no words from her! lolls... Tried to call her, but it's the automated voicemail message. piang eh... Contact xiuwei instead, but she's not with her... She gave me weiling's number and finally, jer called. lolls.... 11:45pm, she was finally here... Waited like, an hour and 15 mins? lolls... Well, 15 mins more and her birthday will be over! lolls... Quickly lite the candles and blew it... lolls.... Alright alright. Went home after that... ^^

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Knew not what I was doing
When I shut the door of my heart
It's as if I was fully drunk
Intoxicated by a bitter wine

Struggles of guilt filled up my mind
Wars of shame fought within my soul
"Had I known" is the master of "too late"
Should have acted the other way

Actions done cannot be rewound
Just like words out of the mouth
They are sharp like two-edged swords
And cut so deep into the soul

All I regret... what I said and did
Wish I could have a second chance
From my heart I sincerely repent
And confess... a prisoner of conscience

If I knew back then what I know now
Would have listened to all you said
Lessons learnt in the frailty of my mind
And i'll always live to regret

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I want to go Doha to watch the asian games! =)

Alright alright... Update a little about my life. Met up my cousins on sunday! It's like, a year ago since I saw them! lolls... Went to town area... Lunch at marina centre. Went into a cafeteria and chat alot alot in there... What a nice chat. After that, dinner at marina bay.. ^^

Yesterday, supposed to meet valerie in the morning. However, my phone's like a little screwed up so I couldn't contact her. In the end, met her at 2 in the afternoon. Hahas... I swear I'll smash that phone into pieces after I get a new one... =)

Well, caught a movie at cathay. Watch casino royale, that 150 minutes show, again. Second time in this month already. Hahas... After that, went for a drink at coffee club beside kinokuniya in ngee an city. We crap alot there... lolls.... Dinner at Fish & Co in Wheelock Place. After dinner, it was about 8pm. She suggested to catch another movie. So we walked to lido complex and check the showing time for happy feet. 9:30 pm slot. Bought the tickets and we went to mark & spencer to buy some tibits.. Then, we went to McCafe for coffee... Cabbed and sent her home. Fare came up to $25 but it's a small price to pay for the company.. ^^

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#1. Xin Yi
#2. Valerie
#3. Vincent
#4. Aloysius
#5. Danny
#6. Sean
#7. Jerena
#8. Candis
#9. Jing Yuan
#10. Pang Yong
#11. Jia'en
#12. Nicole
#13. Ze Yi
#14. Charlene
#15. Wee Teck
#16. Chin Keong
#17. Adelaide
#18. Rachel Lee
#19. Hong Yong
#20. Julene

How did u meet #14?
Oh well, think was the D&T appron that draw us together. =)

What will you do if you didn't meet #1?
Life will be meaningless during primary school days without her presence.

What you'd do if #9 & #20 dated?
What can i do? hahas... think they don't even know each other...

Would #6 & #17 make a great pair?
*laughs* Aloysius will kill him for that..

Describe #3:
A nice guy. A very nice guy. An extremely nice guy.

Describe #8:
My beautiful and wonderful laogong! A great confidante indeed.

Describe #7:
The nicest girl I ever met in my life! Extremely cheerful and she never failed to made others smile no matter what she do.. =)

Know any of #12 family members?
Of course! Her mum even give me 'ang pao' during chinese new year!

What would you do if #18 c0nfess t0 you if she like you?
Hell no! I'll lose a great friend if I accept her good will.

What language does #15 speaks?
GWA GWA... =)

Who is #8 going out with?
How am I supposed to know? Her friends are everywhere!

How old is #16?
A cool 15teen

When was the last time you spoke to #13?
About a month ago i guess......

Who is #2 favourite band or singer?
Just msg her and she said 183 club..

Would you ever date #1?
We go out together every now and then.. ^^

Is #19 single?
I guess so?

Would you ever be in relationship with #11?
Ya... And Jerroy, Francis Ho Kim Lam will come after me by then.

State #3 school:
Corrupted Secondary School =)

What's #10 last name?
Hayden?

Where does #6 live?
Mount Faber, The Pearl

What's y0ur favourite thing about #15?
STARING!

Have you seen #2 naked?
lolls? Isn't that ridiculous?

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Hello guys and my pretties.. ;) Time off from my hectic life to do some updates :)

So yeah, there you go. I know I know, its been such a whirlwind week for me and its not going to slow down.

Swam 20 laps on wednesday. Went to sean's house to collect my golf bag after swimming and he told me that he'll be away to korea on the 27th. Hahas.. Hereby to wish him all the best for his journey. ^^

Stayed at home for the entire day on thursday. Too exhausted I guess. Have a nice chat with my dad at night. Oh well, we haven't had a chat for a long long time already. Well, suggested to him my ideas abt the renovation for my room and he promised to buy me either a media centre desktop or a laptop. geez... ^^

Friday morning, went swimming with vincent again and I swam 32 laps.. Hahas.. Went home after that and I slept till the evening. Changed and went to meet up valerie. View her school's talent night show and that was a great one. Hahas. Went to east coast for supper after that. Alright, talked and cycled through the whole night. Sent her home by cab at 5 and I rushed to the airport to sent my daddy off to shanghai. Reached home at about 8 am this morning.

Slept about 3 hours and I was woke up by my phone's message tone. That was a sms from charisse. lolls... She asked me to look for her at her workplace when I'm free! *tada~~ vincent!*

Gotta start planning training programs, schedules and stuff for next year, or at least the next couple of months already. Cannot afford to be ignorant about my time and priorities already. Gotta plan to get more done.

Will be meeting my friends in an hour time and I'm still here typing the blog! I've yet to eat my lunch either.. OMG.. Muhahaha.... =)

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Alright, to be frank, i'm feeling neutral now, meaning, i'm not feeling as lousy like the past. Just feeling a bit, kinda wasted ya? From the day when that feeling grows for her, i told myself, we're not meant for each other. Well, not fated i guess? Yes, we did have sweet memories together. But, guess reminisces the past is a meaningless thing for me to do now. =)

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This week had been a very fulfiling one for me. ;)

Never failed to go out in the past 7 days. And now, I'm starting to get sick of this island already. Sarcastically small. =)

Was supposed to meet up xin yi for movie yesterday but I wasn't really in the mood so I didn't go. But anyway, met up sean yesterday morning to woodlands, causeway point to watch rachel's dance performance. Alright, it was kinda of good one however, one of the dancer on the stage spoilt the whole beautiful picture... ;) Met up danny at orchard after that.

Oh well, something nuts happened when we're on our way there. There's this girl, aged about 16, walked against my direction and waved to me. No doubt, I waved back and smiled to her as an acknowledgement. She speaks, "eh? you're here also ar?" I said, "haha... ya lor.. you too? hmmm... byebye..." Few steps later, sean asked me who's that girl. And I think back, ya horrrr.... Who's that girl huh? Alright, I'm blur okay... I've no idea who is she yet I responded to her. How sarcastic. =)

Lunch on sean, ate pepper lunch in ngee an city. Walked to lido and look around. Bought a shirt. Sean spent quite alot there. Aloysius and vincent came after a while. Seeing eye to eye for watching movie at vivo city. Reached there, OMG. Sunday's vivocity was crowded with people, same goes for the cinema. Even gold class were full house. So, we ain't watching and we went to pasir panjang for dinner. Ate duck rice and it really cost a bomb. Bloody hell.

Took bus to safra. Aloysius and vincent played pool, sean and danny went to the arcade and I went to watch the singapore national bowling competition. It really reminds me of the golf competitions.. Hahas.. After that, aloysius and sean went home. Danny, vincent and I went to harbourfront centre. Bought jerena's birthday present! ^^ lolls..... =]

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Hello my pretties.. :) Finally here to update again!

Its been a bit of a grind this week but all the same, that's my life for you.

Friday had a 18 holes session with uncle charles and auntie helen at warren. Not great but wtf, greens are screwed so I couldn't expect much anyhow. Played a respectable 79 strokes anyway..
Saturday, went to shop at orchard area with nicole. Bought an ashworth outfit and a pair of shoes. Hahas.. And might considering changing my driver to Titleist 905.. ^^ Dinner at Traders' Hotel besides tanglin mall.

Yesterday, met up valerie at jurong east in the morning.. Alright, she's more beautiful than what I expected.. ^^ Cabbed to holland village for lunch, walked through the alley and stopped at a small stall beside the restaurant.. Bought a necklace for her as a gift and she bought me a bracelet. lolls... Then, accompanied her to jurong point to meet her parents and I made my way in a hurry to meet vincent and aloysius. Headed to sim lim square to check the price of the O2 phone. But nope, there's none. Well, went to aloysius house and waited for him to get changed. Swift down to suntec city mall after that.

This morning, went to expo for the bloody hell exhibition... A suggestion, could the people there please use their brain before they attempt something?

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Hey ya'll, I'm living in an extremely lovely life recently... Didn't have this kind of feelings for some time alr..

Alright, after all, I'm in a god damn excellent mood.. I was out with vincent and aloysius this afternoon... First half of our journey was boring.. It's like, looking for friends around... However, things change when we reached harbour front. Okay, the situation was like this, Aloysius knew that his friends were at that area too... But he's trying his best to avoid them... So we acted like criminals, hiding here and there... So eventually, we thought that we were safe. But things went the other round... We walked to the concourse and there's having a warehouse sale or sth.. We stopped and looked around... Suddenly, somebody yell 'ALOYSIUS!' from our back. We turned around and was cassandra and theresa. Oh well, aloysius was damn surprised. Sounds ridiculous huh? Why in the world would such coincidental thing happened. lolls... =)

Soon after, we made our way to vivocity and after walking for sometime, we went into toy'r'us. And what the hell, theresa was at the counter paying for her purchases... Okay, this is the second time... And we closed an eye, telling ourselves that's purely coincidental. But we saw them again for the third time in vivomart.

Moral of the story? You can run, but you cannot hide. The more you avoid, the more you'll encounter. ^^

Alright, the next thing, *ahem ahem* when aloysius make friends with candis... Muhahahahaha!
Aloysius took my phone and called candis just now. He called and looked for "christopher". Hold on, let me repeat. Using christopher's phone to look for christopher? How irony. =) And ya, he find all the damn excuses to talk to her longer. My god... And the funniest thing was, when he put down his phone, he was like, "Wow... Her voice's sooooo sweeeeettttttt!" lolls... *ahem ahem* Well, everything started when he saw her picture in my phone 2 weeks ago... oops... ;)

So, above is a long story but, it linked to a short conclusion. My dear aloysius wanna make friends with her.. =)

No offence ya?

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Yes, if anyone still cares, I'm alive.

You ever get that feeling at the end of an absolutely awesome movie (etc star wars or the lord of the rings trilogy or the matrix trilogies) or like an absolutely brilliant musical or stage production (like joseph, phantom or less miserables) or the final episode of a long running fantabulous tv series ( friends, princess hours ) and just go "wow, that was such a great ride... I really don't want to end... I wanna see what's happening next" even though you know it's the end...

But what keeps you glued to it, what keeps you wanting to come back more? Simple, you've watched the characters grow, and you've grown with them. You've cried with them, laughed with them and seen them go through so much, you feel an inseparable bond of attachment with them.. It's so strong, you just don't want to let go... Even if it is the end of the road.

And yes, if you haven't already guessed what this is all about, let me just spell it out for you... It's finally come to the end of a magical and truly wonderful 2 years journey for me in the national junior golf team. I mean truly it's been just brilliant. But now's the time to pretty much begin my long process of writing thank you cards and getting ready to say goodbye to some of the most amazing people I've met thus far in my young life...

It's all kinda hit me really hard in the past couple of days, a little too hard I guess. I mean it's seems all so cliche but it seems like just yesterday that I've got roped on board on this crazy adventure with 8 other promising young golfing talents... We were pretty much just acquaintances up till then. But now have become very close friends, and competitive rivals, all of whom I respect very much.

But hey, no one knew how everything was going to work out, we just prayed that it would. And now that everything has, I guess we're all kinda wishing deep down in our hearts that we could play it all over again, like some 4am re-run of a friends episode from 1999... But we can't.

Now everyone's going their separated ways. First was the big boss melissa wong early on in the year.. Then others followed...

I don't know where my heart lies is still divided. My commitment to my game is as unwaivering as ever. I wanna be the best.

I've got more things running around in my mind now, probably a good idea just to sort everything out within the next 1 or 2 days.

Sigh.. So many things racing in my head. No wonder I've got a bloody headache since morning. Well, at least my backache aren't killing me no more..

I hope your fortunes are better than mine at this present time.

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Yes, I'm alright. This world's happenings were driving me crazy...

So where are you god whenever I need you? It just so unfair okay...

Alright, went to school this morning. Had physics class and I skipped mathematics'.. =) Played 18 holes with aloysius and vincent after that. Yes, I did win some cash from vincent... However, it turned out to be a weird outcome.

Had our dinner and we left our golf bags at sean's house. Cabbed to robin's place (yupps.. finally, i'm able to contact him..) and we went to play bowling at aloysius's club and I broke my highest pin-fall record! ^^ Went for supper after our game but sean and aloysius went back home.

Robin and I talked about some school's matters... The appealing and whatever. And of course, not gonna say anything here...

Cabbed home and was about 1 a.m already.. I still have some events' going on tmr... Crashing soon.. =)

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Went to the school for headstart programme today. So after that, intended to played golf. However, Aloysius went over to Adelaide's house and will be staying over tonight. What a jerk he is huh? =)

So, aloysius is going to malaysia with adelaide's daddy for golfing tmr. I tried to call aloysius in the afternoon but adelaide pick up. Talk to her for a while... Then aloysius called me... Hahas... Sounds a little ridiculous..

Heard that robin had sent his appeal to the school already. Wish him all the best? Oh ya, gao de will be appealing tmr... Really hope the both of them will receive a favorable verdict soon... ^^

Gotta go to the school again tmr in the early morning and I realised that I haven't done my homework. Hahas...

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I'm waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting... 4th day gone and yet still not even a single word from that idiot. *yawns* I'm sick of these hell loads of waiting already.. =)

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Hey nicole...She's an angel to you, but a devil to me... =)

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So after all the tears and everything, I've came up with a cool conclusion, not giving a damn about it anymore... Why? Because I ain't wasting my life just like that.. ^^

Well, glad to hear that gao de is feeling better already. Hahas... All I wish now is, we can still be as close, just like what we used to be even though we'll not be in the same class next year. Will I? Anyway, gao de, jia you! ^^ And also not forgetting all my classmates this year, all the best for the year 2007!

On the coming 2 months of holiday, there'll be lots of things for me to do or complete. Firstly and the most important thing, improve on my schoolwork. Although I managed to promote to 4E next year, my results were not really impressive. So I'll be working hard on it and get ready for my O'level next year. Next, golfing. Well, I think I'll not be going for any competition this season for one simple reason, my back still unwell. However, I feeling much more better compared to the middle of this year. So I'll be training up again over the holidays. The best is, to drop my handicap from 10 to 7. That's my target! =)

As for that someone out there, I feel completely nothing but disappointment. Extremely disappointed. I thought she'll be changing to the better however, it happened in the opposite way... But what can I do?

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So that's the end of my sec 3 camp. An average one from my perspective. Activities were interesting and challenging though however, some of the members in my group simply sucks, a big time.

Well, still gotta mention this, some of the members in my group were great! So can conclude that it's a mixture of goodies and badies ba... geez.. =)

And for the past 3 days, I'm feelin' under the weather. For a simple reason, seeing the things which I hated to see and it just happened right in front of my eyes. However, do I have a choice? The other party seems to enjoy also. Yes, I'm jealous ok... Damn it. Screw that. Really feel like punching that guy whenever I see him. Hehe.. ;)

Alright, about the results... Well, I've passed, promoted to sec 4 express next year but I ain't happy at all... I'm not, I'M NOT! I'll be losing lots of my friends. "gao de, cassan and robin..." Guess my class wouldn't be interesting without their present next year...

I really have got no idea what to say now, damn upset for gao de la... UPSET OKAY!?!? I really wish to turn back the time. Or if I can, I'll demolish the fact and change it to a more favourable one.

I'll stop here. Not felling very well now..

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So after all, it's still a fulfilling day for me today... =)

School was really boring today, only thing I did was talking and playing PSP. However, with friends' company and somehow or rather, I felt much more better!

Bell goes and past my unofficially final school day for the academic year. Went to jp with candis after that. Ate lunch and stroll around the shopping centre. Feeling a little unwell at the same time.. Hahas... So I went home and rest a little. Intend to go out after that but it's when I realised that my atm card's still with robin. Hahas..

Rushing for time now!!!

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Just back home now, tired. But won cash from Robin today so I'm pleased. Chopped it around like a spaz though...

So this morning, I shall say that my school's "hall" had turn into a "hell" once again. With endless presentation and everything. Screw that. Woke up early and rush to school like hell, yet to be there on time to waste my time. Weird right?

Back to the class, miss loh showed us our 2nd combined results and I'm pleased. And also, she showed us our cca records and I'm so pissed when I saw the print-out. None of my competitions were recorded though I passed entry forms to the school for endorsement. So I gotta recall back all the tournaments I've took part in for the pass 3 years. However, couldn't manage to recall every single one. This is the records in my computer:

2004

2nd National Inter-School Golf Championships, Seletar Country Club
(28-30 May 2004)

Volkswagen Junior Golf Championships, Laguna National GCC
(16-19 Nov 2004 )

Accenture Champion of Champions, Laguna National GCC
(24-27 Nov 2004)

Callaway World Junior Open, San Diego
(5-8 Dec 2004)


2005

Singapore Junior Golf Championships, Tanah Merah Country Club
(14-17 Dec 2005)

JGF-Tanah Merah International Junior Golf Invitational, TMCC Garden Course
(22-24 Dec 2004)

Golfer's Place, Sembawang Junior Golf Challenge
(30 Jan 2005)

Home Team Western Sector Golf Tournament 2005, Seletar GCC
(15 Apr 2005)

Asia Pacific Junior Golf Championships, SICC
(23 - 26 May 2005)

DBS Junior Golf Challenge Leg 1, SICC Island Course
(8-9 June 2005)

Orchid CC Junior Golf Invitational
(14-16 June 2005)

Singapore Junior Golf Championships, Keppel Golf Club
(21-23 June 2005)

3rd National Inter-School Golf Championships, Seletar Country Club
(11-12 July 2005)

MOE Selection Trials - ASEAN Combined Schools, Seletar GCC
(13-16 Aug 2005)

Singapore National Amateur Championship, Sembawang CC
(23-24 Aug 2005)

DBS Junior Golf Challenge Leg 2, Warren Golf and Country Club
(5-6 Sept 2005)

SICC Junior Invitational Golf Championships
(13 - 15 Dec 2005)


2006

4th National Inter-School Golf Championships, Seletar GCC
(30 May - 1 Jun 2006)

Seletar GT-Junior Open 2006, Seletar GCC
(6 - 8 Jun 2006)



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Okay, I'm not exactly in a peachy mental state but here it goes...

Well, was really a relief that I've cleared my english language for the examinations. Finally, my heart is at ease when I learned that I'll be able promote to Sec 4 Express next year.

However, this wasn't a great thing, though. Cos some of my friends may not *touch wood* be able to make it. Haiz... Just feelin' kind of down. Really hope that every of my classmates will be able to study in the same class next year. Really...

Was feeling kinda "xin suan" when I saw jerena standing outside the class alone, no idea what's she was thinking about at that moment (but definitely about the results), and her tears' rolling down her cheeks. I was wondering, why would god be so cruel to such a hardworking girl? I know she've been studying and working very hard for the exams, I can tell that. However, the results ain't really impressing for her ya? But... we know that she had done her best already... And she's commentably positive to face the fact. So.. I shall say that I'm very proud of her!!! =)

So after school, was supposed to go to town with candis but something's up so I'm not able to go with her. I'm sorry candis... =(

After I finished up the golf matters, bowled with robin and vincent. 1 up and 3 down. Damn it. Lost 2 bucks to robin because of that stupid guy.

Supposed to have breakfast with charlene tmr morning but she's meeting up the whoever so I'm NOT joining them. Hahas.. It's also a good thing too as I could be able to rest for another hour.. ^^

- Jerena, I know you've done your best already.. Very proud of you also... But, no matter what the outcome will be, rmb that you have your friends with you by your side always! You ain't walking the way alone. Cheer up!!! I wanna see Gao De smiling always. Hahas... Well, wish you all the best for your future's endeavor! =)

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A non-fictional story about 3 weirdos, me, jing yuan and candis. Hahas..

Candis, jing yuan and I went out yesterday. Met up candis and took mrt and yuan met us at 2 stations later. Alight at buona vista and walked to holland village. Candis wanna have pasta for lunch but there's none suits us. So went to a food court and we agreed that we'll have a better meal at night. Jing yuan bought a bowl of dessert and after she finished, she overturn the bowl and sticking out the spoon, placed like a totoise. Hahas.. I saw that and I deliberately hit the table and the bowl falls onto the ground, followed by a loud clash. Hahas...

So after that, went into a supermarket and bought drinks and bread. Headed to botanic garden next. After a long walk, finally came to a pond behind the symphony stage. Started feeding the fishes, totoises and birds. So cute lor... Hahas... Well, after that, walked straight in and saw a place named "evolution garden". Took some pictures there and on the way, the path leads us to a shelter, it's where we feed the mosquitoes endless blood supply! So as we walk, it comes the exit beside the toilet when we walked straight up again. Well, intend to go to the nearest bus stop and just board any bus and see where'd it brings us to. However, on the way, saw a supermarket. Enters and the air conditioner was impressively cooling. When we look around, I saw an aluminum container and this is when my wild idea strikes my mind. ~Barberque~! So I told them what I was thinking and they agreed. So we started to grab the necessary stuffs for bbq and made payment.

Things we bought:

- Packet of chicken wings with 7 mid-wings inside;
- Packet of chicken breast meat;
- Bacon;
- Sausages
- Iron mash
- Charcoal
- Fire Starter
- Paper plates
- Serviettes
- 2 disposable aluminum container
- 2 bottles of 1.5 litre drinks
- Bottle of distilled water
- Satay sticks
- Lighters

Actually, wanted to do it in the botanic garden. However, happened to find out that there are timing, as if, they'll be closing at a certain time. So we walked to the bus-stop and look at the bus directories for directions. And I saw, Mac Ritchie reservoirs! So we took the bus along bukit timah road.

When we reached, walk in from the deserted pathway and reached a wooden pathway. Along the pathway, saw some monkeys besides. I told the girls to beware of them as they'll attack people. Guess what? They really did, victim was jing yuan. No injuries but the monkey made a hole to the plastic bag and a can of drink and the satay sticks dropped and went into the water. Hahas.. So we went against the original direction and finally came to a patch of grassland. Sat down and rest for a while before starting up the fire.

Well, have had a hard time starting up the fire as I've got zero experience for starting a successful one cos I've failed many times in the past. However, everything was done in around 30 minutes time I supposed and the girl's facial expressions really makes me wanna laugh! It's like pathetically watching me dealing with the fire starter and the charcoal. lolls... Well, asked them to marinate the meat with cream soda. After everything is up, we realised that we've got no satay sticks. So we can't do normal barbecuing on the iron mash. No choice, place the aluminum container over the fire and started "cooking". I started off with the wings and jing yuan find it interesting and she took over me and continue with the meat and bacon... Hahas... So me and candis sat down and waited for the chef for the yummy food. ^^

Time was getting late and dark. They were scared and I'm worried. So we packed up and made our way out of the reservoir. It was so damn dark. We had a very hard time walking out the path although it's just a 200m distance.

We walked to the bus stop and waited for vincent and chester. In the mean time, played some games together.. Hahas... 40 mins later, they finally arrived. So we board the next bus we saw and came to ang mo kio mrt station. Board the train and went to orchard. Drinks at lido and yuan was tired. So we took a bus ride home... ^^


Shopping?


It's me! Sitting along the reservoirs.


The two girls on the rock!


I wonder what's inside the pond.


Here they goes again.


Jing Yuan was like, "LOOK! WHAT'S THAT!?" ^-^


Fire!


I'm sure she gotta better way to barbeque.. hahas..


They were afraid of this in the dark~~~

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Have had a long day today... Nope, should be yesterday.. ^^

Breakfast with charlene this morning and she was late this time round. Hahas.. She went to meet the whoever after that and I went to the school alone. Saw her appearing in school 5 minutes later after I reached and that was impressively fast..

Physics paper for the last paper of the final term examination today. Wasn't that bad cos I managed to finish it just on time. Headed home after that.. Msg charlene and had a small tiff with her... Over stupid matters by the way, but was okay after that... Hahas...

Well, went out with my brother to vivocity after I took a light nap. Ate lunch there and vincent came to meet us later. Beveraged in some cafe and that one the first amount of money I spent in that shopping mall.. *laughs* Headed to orchard after that.

Walked to mark & spencer and my brother bought quite alot of stuffs which cost just a little bit more to a hundred bucks. Dine at KFC and walked around at golf house. Till about 10pm, took bus to jurong east to meet robin. Vincent went home cos he've got exams going on tmr. Well, supposed to catch a midnight movie but there's none on the weekdays. Went to play bowling instead and played 4 games. Won 3. Drinks on my brother. Well, after that, went for supper and chat a bit there. Cabbed home and dropped robin at his house. It was around 2:30am then.

Gotta meet candis and jing yuan in another 10 hours time. *yawns* =)

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Was feeling under the weather today. Don't know why I'm feeling like this. There is a thought which have been bothering me for 2 days already... Sigh..

Well, did the quiz which Jerena asked me to... However, saved it in a password-protected document below. Contact me personally to retrieve the password if you want to.

File: Quiz...

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Here's a little write-up for how I've spent my day today.

Went out to study with charlene just now.. I was late, with a perfect reason.
( She asked me to take my time... hahas.. ) Well, met up at harbourfront but there was too crowded for study. She suggested esplanade's library and we made our way there. However, same thing happened too.. Crowded with people... Went up to the rooftop terrace for a while but it's too hazy and hot for us to stay there. So we went to marina square and finally came to mcdonalds.

Did a little bit of revising for maths and physics. She kept laughing and laughing and I didn't have any clue what she was laughing about. What a weirdo. Somemore, she folded paper airplane using her foolscap paper and threw at me. WEIRD! Hahas... However, glad to say that she did some serious study... wow... hahas.... Unbelievable right.. tsk tsk tsk tsk..... =)

After that, she left to her aunt's house and i think she's supposed to be in malaysia by now... Think she'll be back by tmr? lolls...

Well, after she left, met up sean and michael. I bought a billabong handphone pouch and a wallet. Walked to suntec city and we did nth much there. Michael bought a suit and I personally think that he should get a bigger one... Cabbed to vivo city next. Had our dinner there... After that, left the both of them and went home. Happened to see nicole and valerie on the way and we sat down together and chat a bit... Really have a great time with them. Had supper then sent them home in a cab. Fare came up to about $25 but it was a small price to pay for the company. hahas...

In conclusion, have had a very fun day today!

Anyway, here's something I pinched off from benji's blog to kill time... Enjoy.. =)

1. Does anyone know your password to your email?
I don't think so... Seriously...

2. What was the last thing you ordered at McDonalds?
"Hi.. Two medium green tea, one with lemon please."

3. Are you an emotional person?
Overly emotional...

4. Do you like your name?
Why not?

5. Do you believe in love at first sight?
There's always a possibility.. =)

6. Ever felt jealous of your friend?
uh huh *loads shotgun*

7. What was the last thing you did?
Blink...

8. Who is right next to you?
My shadow.

9. Who was the last person you ate with?
Nicole and valerie!

10. What song are you listening to right now?
Christmas Memories

11. How's the weather right now?
Cool and Dark... Ashwin-like haze.

12. Last person you called today?
Charlene

14. Last song you sang?
Following the rhythm of christmas memories

15. Last time you danced?
About 30 minutes ago

16. Lost a friendship over something stupid?
Yep, unfortunately

18. Last thing you ate?
2 dogs and a cow

19. Been really depressed before?
Yes. occasional suicidal inclinations but look around at friends and life seems better!

20. Faked being sick to miss school?
Oh I've done way more than that... I don't just fake sick. I INDUCE sickness upon myself.. ^^ Now that's dedication!

21. What time did you wake up today?
4.35am

22. Current taste?
Salty

23. Who is the person that posted this survey?
Benji

24. What are you wearing right now?
Ripcurl shirt and a basketball pants...

25. Are you too shy to ask anyone out?
HELL NO... Hahas... I've got guts one ok.... *blinks*

26. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Sometimes I don't even know if they're the opposite sex. Seriously, the style females tie their hair up.

27. Where are you right now?
My beautiful beautiful bedroom.

28. What date and day is it?
Thank god its a Sunday! 8-10-06

29. Did you go anywhere today?
harbourfront . esplanade . marina square . suntec singapore . vivo city

30. What did you do there?
meet charlene, explore the library and rooftop . study . did nth . dinner . drinks and supper

31. How old are you?
the big 15

33. Are you mature or immature?
I'm more mature than you! "neh neh neh neh neh neh!" =P

34. Do you call your parents by their first name?
Ain't that rude?

35. Are you an only child?
Hell no!

36. Where do you go shopping?
EVERYWHERE! I LOVE SHOPPING!!!

37. Do you like where you work?
Seletar? Yeah, no other place I'd rather be

38. Do you like books?
That would depend on the nature of the book...


- Charlene aka blur sotong, sorry about my late coming! You asked to take my time so I really did lor... Sorry sorry! =) All the best for your upcoming exams! ^^

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Really not in the mood for blogging a long post so I shall made it a short one.

Went to the beach for sunset yesterday but the heavy haze brought me down with disappointment. Soon later, went to the cathay for movie but it turned out to be disappointment again. Most of the movies were rated at NC16. Screw that. Well, intend to have dinner in Meritus Mandarin but seriously, I hate the ambience there. So crowded and noisy. Went to ngee ann city instead. Went up to the 2nd or 3rd storey and dine in a restaurant. Food wasn't really up to standard but I love that atmosphere alot. Next, wanted to go to some bar for drinks but still, it was very crowded, it was about 10 pm, though. So I walked to wheelock place and went into a cafe for dessert instead. Cabbed home after that.

Well, as for today, will be going out for self-study later. Will be focusing on physics and of course, a little bit of maths.

Good luck everyone! ^^

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Well, I think my words in the previous post were a little too harsh in a sense but, what I'm stating here were the facts. I know she've viewed or read the post already. No matter she like it or not, I don't care. I just want her to know what kind of a person she is in my impression. I'm very sorry about it but I really left with no other choice. So if you really hate the content on this page, you've got no choice but to click on the little cross at the corner of your monitor to get yourself out of here.

Whatever it is, I don't give a damn anymore. I just want a simple life and I'm leading one now. So what else should I ask for? Basically, nothing.

I've been trying to forget you
To get my feet back on the ground
Even if I know I should back away
It's just a part of me that I can't erase

Walking through the park in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
My memories of you were everywhere

Tomorrow will be the starting of examinations already. The best of luck to everyone reading. God bless everyone

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Alright. Let me start this post with a ten things list. For a girl whom I hated the most in my life ever.

Well, there it goes...

Ten things/reasons why I feel such a strong hatred about her:

1. She such a bitchy bitch. I can still tolerate some bitches. But I simply just can't stand this fella.

2. She claim herself as high-class. Yupps. She's a bit higher in standard, compare to roadside beggars. Slightly higher class than them

3. She thinks herself as a boy's magnet. Yupps... I agreed.. She have the same magnetic point as the males and when we see her, we'll automatically repel. See any hidden agenda here? (N+N= repel. N+S= attract)

4. This is important and the main reason why I hate her so much. She promised me that she'll protect "ahem" and will not let anyone else hurt "ahem". But she failed. Instead, she's the one who lead "ahem" into the miserable life.

5. She claims herself as rich people. And I don't see her as it. Figure this out in a logical way, who will work and waste the time and energy for money if they're rich? Which rich people will use imitation goods and showing off to everyone? Ain't it shameless?

6. She's disgusting. She thought she's popular among her friends, but seriously, nobody likes her.

7. She doesn't have the looks but keep on claiming that she's prettier than someone else when I think vice versa. And that's the fact okay...

8. She always thought that she was right when the fact is, she's the one who was at wrong.

9. Her talkative mouth. It's not wrong to be talkative because it shows you have some thoughts in your mind and wanna rant everything out. But her aim is, to attract everyone's attention using her loud and disgusting voice. That's why she talk so much.

10. She has ZERO knowledge in her brain. Low IQ too. Easily describe as a brainless human being. Why I say so? Let's figure this out. When others are busying mugging for examinations, you know what she do? She just can't be bother. With her "Fail lor.. Who cares?" concept. And that's why she failed badly for her mid-year. She seriously have some problems in her language. Both english and mother tougue were like shit. She don't know how to do simple maths question. If she wants to rot herself, we'll be more than happy to see her doing so. But she drag "ahem" down also. Asked "ahem" to skip school and blah blah blah. Teach "ahem" to do those wrong stuffs.

Well, for those have some idea who I'm referring to, congrats. Perhaps you guess it correctly. But for those who don't, I'm sorry. Cos it's be too sensitive if names are mention. Maybe I'll consider telling you the person if you approach me personally.

I'm sorry if this post is too offensive.

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Examinations starting tomorrow. It's to prove how much knowledge I've absorbed in the past 9 months... And so, I'll do my very best to prove myself that I've not wasted the past 9 months. To everyone out there, all the best for your examinations! See ya'll in secondary 4 in year 2007! You guys rocks!

Tag replies:
Cassan: Yupps.. Thanks too... hahas... The best of luck for your exams! ^-^

Jer: Hmmm, he's vincent la... Your friendly neighbour next block. Hahas... Maybe you wanna join us for the next time? ^-^

This weekend's probably gonna be my quiet time for some spiritual introspection. So here goes...

29/9/06 Friday

It's kind of typical routine for a student like me. Off to school at around 7 and lesson started with POA. We're like, engrossed working out the answer for the final account. Think I'm still able to manage this tricky subject.

Physical education at 2 periods before recess. Teacher's gave us a stupid but important PE theory. Played netball but I'm totally uninterested.

After school, waited for candis to finish up her assignment before we can actually draw nearer to Sakae Sushi. Yupps. We went to harbour front and dine.. Went home after that and was around 6:30 pm already. Meeting vincent at 7:30 pm. So showered, changed and headed to the meeting place. Took bus and went all around this island. However, finally alighted at Holland Village. Ate some BBQ seafood there. After that, board another bus to tour around this island again. I've thought about stuffs between me and her. Was thinking, what can I do to celebrate her coming birthday? Well, I do have a plan out of it already. But just keep it to myself at the moment. ^-^ Cabbed home after that.

30/9/06 Saturday

I stayed at home in the afternoon for self-study. Finished a mathematics paper and 2 chinese essay. After that, blast my new sound system which installed in my room. Cool. Dinner with some friends at the night. Bought some sparkling sticks ( or whatever it is ) and played in a park. Drank some alcoholic drinks and I swear I just drink a little. This's the first time I touched alcohol again since my 15th birthday. It's a total nightmare on that day. Screw that.

As for today, will be staying at home till evening and will be having dinner with my family later.

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Here are some random thoughts I've been having for the past few days..

I get in and out of trains.. And I realise how sad people are.. You don't even have to ask them.. It's as if.. None of them are in love.. Or look forward to going back home.. Well.. Maybe they think that going back home would mean another night of sleeping and then going back to work again..

I find it strange how some people can look so beautiful.. And yet don't show it off. I saw this lad, she was about 20 plus years old.. In her office clothes and stuff.. She had such good features, sharp nose, nice eyes, good hair.. It seems she has it all.. But she had this frowning expression on her face.. Of fatigue.. She seemed like a mean girl with that expression, maybe a bad day at work? Hahas.. But it was such a waste. Even for other people.. Everybody thinks about how horrible or boring or routined their day went.. But they usually don't think about something that made them the least bit happy.. And I always wondered how almost every single person has got the same features.. Eyes, nose, mouth, skin, ears etc. But still look so very very different..

And I wonder how every single day I see new kinds of people.. 4 million people in singapore and I see new ones everyday.. Maybe I won't know if I've seen this stranger before.. Maybe I wouldn't remember.. But I wonder how long it would take me to see all 4 million faces..

How about love? When do you know you've fallen in love..? When I see a couple together holding hands.. I think.. How do you know he or she is that one person you want to spend the rest of your life with.. And does being in love necessarily mean you have to get married? Or can you spend the rest of your life together without any marriage vows and still go on having children.. Would that be too weird?

I think about how and why 2 people get attracted to each other.. Usually you'd see them within the same standards.. I'm thin, you're thin, I'm plump, you're plump. I wear glasses, you wear glasses..

How about.. If I'm a rebel and you're a goody? Is that possible? Can the most notorious person fall in love with the biggest nerd? I believe what my friend said last saturday.. No one actually really knows you.. Not even the person you've been with for 7 years.. Not unless you tell them who you are.. What kind of person you are.. Only you know yourself well.. And it's whether you want to tell the person what kind of person you are to know if they really love you..

And I did a calculation of how long a couple actually really know each other before they get married. Let's say you are seeing this person.. You meet them about at most 15 hours a week.. Or more I don't know? There are 52 weeks in a year.. So that's 15 times 52 which is 780 hours.. 24 times 30 is 720 hours in a month.. 780 divided by 720 is about 1 sth.. Times the relationship lasting for about 3 years.. It would be 3 months.. So actually.. If a couple has been together for 3 years.. You've only known them for 3 months.. I think.. If my calculations are correct.. So how do you know if you know that person long enough to commit?

This is me.. I'm the most messiest person in the world. I doubt anyone else can beat me. I have no floor in my room to walk on. I speak without thinking sometimes and so I get myself embarrassed. I sometimes honestly think that I have no idea how a real relationship works.. Even though I have been in one or two for quite a long time.. I am very lazy.. I don't get things done until I am told over and over again. I have very very weak will power.. I get distracted and tempted very easily thus I procrastinate a lot.

But I know that I love to be around friends.. And talking about things like this.. With them.. How we can crack each other up so much sometimes.. But sometimes we just get on each others nerves.. I will always try to think for other people and see how they feel.. Although sometimes in relationships I don't.. I am very easily amused.. And gullible as well.. I like to fight for what I am right in.. Even though sometimes I'm wrong, I still want to be right..

I am a person who people can get along with really well.. If you've met me for 5 mins, you'll see how easy it is... Or how easy I try to make it.. If I want to know you better, I'll keep talking to you.. But if you don't want to know me.. Then I'll just hold back.. I relate well with teens and adults.. But I have a problem with children.. Because I can't seem to know what to do when I'm around them.. But don't get me wrong.. I still want to have them.. Hahas..

When I'm happy I can just go crazy.. As in seriously, you will hear or see things that is just so ridiculous. But when I'm angry you, just have to leave me alone.. Because I will get angry at you if you bug me.. And I will do it unknowingly.. Although you are trying to help, I can't help it.. I would seems like I'm throwing my temper or venting my anger at you if I'm trying to tell you the problem.

When I'm sad.. I find someone to confide in.. I will tell you my problems and not beat around the bush.. I hate to bottle things inside me.. I am that way because I have thought about committing suicide before and that just scares me.. When I'm nervous I tend to smile a lot..

Sometimes I wish I could be another person.. I wish I could live a life of my particular friend.. Or most of the time I wish I could look like them. I have very low self esteem.. But I don't really show it. I care about what people think of how I look like. But I know that it doesn't matter because I have a great personality to show..

I don't think I have missed out anything about myself right here.. And I don't know why I blogged about this.. But I just felt like it. Hahas..

Seeing how long this entry is, I doubt any of you would bother to read it.. Tell me if you're that silent reader! =)

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Sometimes, when we decide to give the very best of everything to our love ones, do we have the idea for them to return twice as much of what we gave? If we're, we simply didn't treat them as close enough. Some people just treat money as heaven. For money, they don't even give a damn about who you are to them. In fact, they'll severe their relationships with you for money, heartless. It's still alright if something like this happened between friends, you can always stop all the ties between each other. But what about families? Disown them? Just for money? Worth it? Is money really that important? Something sort of happened to me in the past and now, money is absolutely meaningless to me. Friends who know me well enough will know how I treat money. It just come and go and I don't really care about it. Ain't that I'm wealthy but, I don't really see it as something significant anymore. People out there who think that money is everything, please, keep a distance away from me. I just despise people who're like that.

Well, dealing with these three words which candis provided me, ( pretty. sweet . egoistic ), which is the most difficult for us to achieve? After a tough consideration, I shall say, egoistism.

Pretty and sweet is just something external. However, in order to achieve egoistism, you seriously need some self-discipline. For the sake of self-centered and preoccupied with oneself. Example, for a lady, her goal of the year is to achieve a decrease of 10 kg in her mass. Just with this sentence, what mindset should the lady have? Integrity, self-discipline and perseverance. This three points is straight forward and very important.

Firstly, she needs to check her weight every now and then, recording the most accurate value of what she gotten is important. ( Example, if she's 60 kg, she shouldn't delude and claims that she's 58 kg. ) Secondly, when she's already made up her mind not to eat in a meal, she should persevere till the end and not gonna affect by the ones around her who's trying to tempt and urge her. Thirdly, after she had finally achieve her goal, she's should always bear in mind that she has come this far and should feel proud of what she've gotten, hold on to it at all cost and shouldn't let her hardwork gone to waste.

Summarising, once you've made up your mind, always think in a positive way and never regret what you've done. It's just so stupid to do so. Trust your taste, believe your rights, be egoistic. Do not let the people around you affect your decisions.

- You're beautiful, no matter what they say. Words can't bring us down. ^-^

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Why should I had let those stupid stuffs affect me again and again or in fact, the mood of the people around me? Screw that and I not gonna give a damn about it anymore. It just sounds so ridiculous.

Alright, as a frequent weekly routine, went out with some close friends yesterday. While we're busy deciding we should we go, we board a bus at the interchange. Yes. We like to let the bus driver to decide our fate, as in, we'll drop at any stop if we feel like it. Weird huh? Well, we drop at Bukit Timah. Went to some place (which I've got no idea where is it) to have our lunch. After lunch, went up on a bus. We let somebody to decide our fate but this time round, is a girl. I mean, we just look around on the bus and we picked someone randomly and we picked a girl. We tell ourselves that we'll drop at the stop where the girl drops too. However, some stupid phenomenon happened and our journey ends at Chua Chu Kang interchange. So we went up to the MRT station and took the train. We dropped at Marsling, my old homeland.

They followed me to my old house to retrieve something and after which, walk to some weird places and decided to ride on a bus to Causeway Point. After walking a few rounds in the shopping centre and we see nothing we can do much in it, it's time we realised that we gonna start on our bus journey again. I have a weird feeling. I love the ambience of riding on a bus a night. It's just so lovely and peaceful. As if you don't know where will you be or what will you see at the next minute.

We finally reached a place called Sengkang. As it's getting late, we search for our dinner. Found the place but only Danny ate. Vincent and I seriously hate that place and don't have the mood to eat there. Explore a bit of that place and hop onto a bus again. The bus we're on it will be terminating at Toa Payoh. Since we don't have the mood to alight, of course. We chatted and joke on the bus from where the bus's line start to where it's suppose to end. Okay, Toa Payoh. Vincent and I ate Ramen. As for the Ramen, which I swear I'll not consider to eat there for the second time, simply just taste so terrible. Price doesn't really matter, but at least the quality of the product should be acceptable.

Till the end of our outing, took bus again at the interchange and headed home. I'm the lucky one cos the bus will pass by the stop opposite my place. Unlike my other two friends, gotta ride till the very end again. Overall, yesterday had been a beautiful day, despite of wasting so much time on the bus. However, it isn't what we want to do in the first place. It's because for our habit, we usually don't plan in advanced where we'll be going before we meet. It's just so meaningless... Unless we really have important matters to attend to. If not, we shall let the god decide our fate then.

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Life doesn't go smoothly for her recently. Seems like a lot of unwanted troubles happening around her or even, on her itself. As her companion, I'll not hesitate to lend her my helping hands whenever there's a need. I swear I will.

There's a guy (names are not necessary) from my school, hmmm... Which adjective should I use? hmmm...Well, pestering, yes. Kept on pestering her. Come on, I'm sure he ain't brainless. Please think in a big way and act as a modest man. Stop doing all ridiculous action and making all those non-sensical remarks. She won't like it and don't want it. On her behalf, I appreciate all that he had done for her (or nothing at all) but please, leave her alone. I think I gotta address this clearly, I won't hesitate to walk anyone out if anyone sinply have that idea to hurt her, or going overboard.

The reason, I still feel the love and passion for her within me.

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I haven't felt this kinda love in a while. And I'm enjoying every second of it! =)

Alright, moments in school can be quite exciting and interesting at times, but not at all when you seriously can't get yourself into that kind of mood.

Yesterday, did a report in the class with jerena and candis. Suddenly charlene walk pass my class and just nice, I'm sitting at the corner of my classroom which is closest to the backdoor. She told me that she injured her finger during PE... She showed me and it looks like, DISLOCATED?!?! ouch........ Hmmm... Pray that she'll be alright.. God, please hear my prayer...

After school, some of my classmates and 3e2 went to the stupid heritage trail. Little india, kampung glam, clarke quay, chinatown. As if I've never been to those place in my life before.. Whatever...

After the trip, rushed home and get changed to singapore poly. Tanglin secondary put up a performance there.. Went there to support.. Not that bad though but left the auditorium with vincent in the middle of the concert.. Took bus to pasir panjang and ate in a italian restaurant. *vincent..... hehe....*

Well, as for today, I mean the winner of today, is...... *claps* Candis!! lolls... Somebody commented about her today leh.... It's a compliment! I'm serious candis... ^^

A notice to everyone, no matter who you're in particular, if you really need to talk to someone about anything and everything. Need a little lovin? Need a friend? Need someone to make you smile? Just ring me!

You know where to find me... =)

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d'valentine

Well everyone, I'm just back home. I'll blog again tmr. Seriously need some rest now.

Charlene, take care of your hand! Rest well! ^-^

CANDIS! STOP ASKING ME THAT QUESTION! YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN! hahas..

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d'valentine

You realised we didn't talk much to each other today. Whatever. I'm exhausted now. Good night everyone.

what lovin`?
d`valentine

Alright, talk to Charlene for about 2 hours just now.. Hahas

Well, 2 more weeks to final term examinations. But seriously, had mugged like crazy for the past few weeks. What I can do now is to relax myself and consistently revise my work. I shall not let anyone down this time round, including family and friends. After examinations, I'll train hard and get ready for upcoming competitions. First up will be DBS junior golf championship, next will be Hong Kong amateur open and lastly, SICC Junior Invitational @ Singapore Island CC.

Sometimes, I really wonder, is it a mistake for not entering sports school last year? Perhaps, if currently I'm in that school, I'd probably improved my game, having all the chance to release from school for overseas competitions. Did I made the wrong choice for staying in my current school? But, at least, I got my friends around me, supporting me. Maybe all these happiness are what I can't get if I'm in that competitive school.

-The future is in your hands, Strive for success.

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Hey everyone, I'm back to this cyberworld again! I was quite busy for the past few days, therefore I didn't blog. Sorry everyone.

Well, went out with vincent yesterday. Firstly, headed to jurong point to get my earphone changed, due to some faulty. After which, meet up sean and francis at harbour front. However, we left them about 30 mins later. Make our way to novena to explore some new places. Pass by a pastry shop and we went in for hi-tea. We kept ordering and we ate alot.

Next, we took bus to marina square. Shop around that area and we went into creative concept shop. I bought an earphone, again, for the sake of 2nd earphone this week. Hahas.. Walked to clarke quay and went into a coffee house for coffee. We sat down and chat for a long time. After which, took train to outram and have our dinner. And we took bus from there all the way home to jurong area. By the time I reached home, it's about 1 am alr. Hahas.

Let me also talk about something thats going on in sch yesterday. During PE lesson, jogged with yee min around the canal. When I'm about to reach the other end of the canal, I stopped, sat down and feel the breeze. It was so comfortable. At the same time, thought over lots of things. And after sometime, candis came and accompany me. THANKS CANDIS! lolls. Well, had maths test after recess and this wass the first time I find maths so "familiar", I know how to do and I managed to finished the whole paper!

Well, I feet like playing golf right now cos shu hui talk to me just now.. She reminds me of golfing. lolls. Weird.

And one more thing, charlene still owe me a meal. And charlene, don't worry. I'll remember it this time! ^^

* Vincent, all the best, all the best, ALL THE BEST! Errrrr.... Errrrr... God, you know wad I mean! Hope you heard my prayer. Hahas.

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As a reply to Lee Sheng's tag on my blog, (and hopefully, not an aspersion to him) I shall say that it's good to have mood swing. I mean, it shows that you're still a human, still emotional. However, this shouldn't affect too much of your daily life. Moreover, it's something bad to do so. And everyone, live your life with happiness!

I'm very please to know that she's fine. * Move on, a great future is waiting for you!* ^-^

Okay.. Now the quiz that I'm suppose to do.

Name 24 people at the top of your head now

1. Vincent
2. Danny
3. Ji Sung
4. Aloysius
5. Candis
6. Wei Lin
7. Jerena
8. Robin
9. Wee Teck
10. Xin Yi
11. Ze Yi
12. Wan Ting
13. Pang Yong
14. Jeslyn
15. Lam Zhi Qun
16. Charisse
17. Julene
18. Sheena
19. Shu Hui
20. Jonathan
21. Charlene
22. Samuel
23. Rachel
24. Jia Yi

For the questions

1. is 9 single?
He's *ayumi hamasaki*!

2. would u date 20?
He's my AWESOME cousin!!! but date? Meet up i think.

3. is 17 a guy or girl?
Female

4. has 15 and 2 ever dated?
On the same golf course?

5. are you older/younger than 3?
Younger, but hotter...jk, we're great buddies! ;) yo ho!

6. have you ever seen 7 naked?
It's so bad of me to do so... And of cos not.

7. where does 19 live?
Singapore la... We're the only country that'll take her...

8. when was the last time you saw 12?
About 8 hours ago

9. ever watched a movie with 5?
I don't think so...

10. how tall is 23?
How the hell am i supposed to know?

11. do you love 16?
Well i DO, she's my dear SISTA!

12. do you go to the same school as 14?
I hope so but nope...

13. have u ever had classes with 11?
Yup, sure.

14. where was 21 born?
My home planet Tatooine! Seriously, if i'm not wrong, Mount Elizabeth hospital.

15. have you ever hugged 18?
How i wish i could... =P

16. what's 8's middle name?
"Ong" "You can't see me" Keong"

17. is 13 a nice person?
The politically correct response is yes, but its MY blog so "HELL NO!"

18. would u rather 1 die, or you die?
Now why should i die if the world would be more spacious without him ;)

19. is 4 older than u?
I think so, lose to him by the hell 2 days...

20. would u kiss 24?
Seriously if she's someone to me. But now, we're good pals!

21. have u ever swum with 16?
Ahhhh! Perish the thought!!!

22. when's 10's birthday?
21st december 1991! Same as charlene...

23. have u ever been to a party with 19 or 17?
Nope, but i promised julene i'd go out with her when she's legal age...

24. are 22 and 24 good friends?
They've hardly met...

25.will 3 and 7 make a good couple?
A big guy and a small girl makes the world go SQUARE! Hell no.

26. has 15 ever given u a birthday present?
NO!!!! I WANT ONE!!!! YOU HEAR ME LAMMIE!!! I WANT YOUR CLS 350!!!

27. how long have u known 13?
Almost for 3 years, never regret knowing such a great guy!

28. if 5 and 19 were drowning, who would u save?
CANDIS! Candy melts in water after sometime.. Can't afford to lose her! hahas. ;)

29. will 2 be willing to kiss 6?
For the right price... Anything is possible!

DO MY STUPID QUIZ PEOPLE! Don't let my boredom be in vain!!!

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Seriously, when you get offended or sense yourself in some kind of threat or danger, please don't hesitated to retaliate. I mean not to react in a forcefulness manner however, in a capassionate way to walk them out. Just like the aqua living-thing, stingray. Unless you bring some sort of threat to it, it won't even give a damn about your presents. So, in total, I mean, not to get yourself into unwanted troubles unless you've fully prepared for the consequences. This message is directly commented about someone, some actions and she's being identified, I supposed.

Alright, school reopen today after a long chuck of 7 days straight holidays and I guess I'm now ready for a new term. First day of term 4, started off with the endless speeches by teachers and principal, which had bring our pleasure of study down to the lowest. Nothing much happened today. Jerena had her teeth tied by wire with metal pieces in between and it is normally known as braces. Lame la. And it's so bad of me (I know!) to keep asking her to repeat the word "frustrated" cos she can't pronounce that word properly. I mean, she can pronounce but it's like -fwar-sway-terd-. No offence jer! And guys, seriously if you think that's so funny of her trying her best to pronounce that word, try it yourself by having the braces along your teeth and it'll be jerena's turn to laugh at you really hard ! *If you think swimming in water is easy, try to swim in the mud!*

Being the 11th day of September, the 254th day of 2006, I shall say that it's Xiu Wei's 15 year old birthday! I simply can't believe she's 15 years old already. *just kidding* Okay la. I told her to be mature but she told me she'll be childish as ever! By making this sentence, it's proven. She's still childish. lolls. Well, at my greatest pleasure to say this old-fashioned phrase to her, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!

Anyway, thanks to jerena, I've spend all my money away. Grrrr...

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I know I seriously need some rest now. However, I need the time! Life's pretty busy for me and I can hardly breathe the fresh air nowadays. And now I shall take this rare opportunity, I mean, time, to blog.

On wednesday, caught a movie with xinyi at cathay. Saw joshua and mandy there. The movie looked stupid and was terrible. Forget it. Ate ice cream at ben & jerry after that. Ordered a huge bowl with I think 5 or 6 scoops inside and we shared it and having a great time chatting. Send her home before 7 pm and dinner with danny.

The next day, went to escape with danny and vincent. I find it quite boring, I mean, from my perspectives, nothing really exciting. Tried every single rides including the train. lolls.. Intend to take mrt home, however, the freaking ez-link card's giving me problem. No signal when I scan it. Water spoilt the chipset inside I supposed. Lazy to buy the one-way ticket so I cabbed home! Hahas.

Yesterday, BBQ at sean's place. It's supposed to be his birthday gathering cos he's birthday's during the O'level exams period so he brought it forward. Not much people was there. Michael was extremely hilarious. Ask me in person if you wanna know why! lolls.

As for today, supposed to go to singapore open but I overslept. Hahas. I think I sleep about 18 hours today! Well, went dinner with vincent and danny just now.

As for now, decided to do some quiz now which I formally took from sheena's blog. ^-^

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
Poor poor mirror...

2. When is the next time you will have sex?
When the cock crows 3 times ^^ Seriously, when I get married.

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"?
supercalifragalisticexpialidociousDOOR.

4. Favorite planet?
But of course, my home planet Tatooine! Star wars junkie.

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
Private no. erp...

6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone?
Wow, afterall having 400 to choose from, i'd have to say Get Low.

7. What kinda shirt you have on?
Quicksilver shirt given by my dearest deranged halfbrother aloysius.

8. Describe yourself in one phrase
Super cali fragalistic expialidocious

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
brooks / reebok.

10. Bright or Dark Room?
Dim.

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
SHE'S FOOLISH CAUSE SHE'D RATHER HAVE A MILLION BUCKS THAN FLY.

12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on?
The one with the pillow.

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Watching coverage of the deuche bank championship

14. What did your last text message say that you received on your mobile?
I'm ShuYu larhs..can marrhs?

15. Where is your letter box?
@ GMAIL.COM

16. What's a word that you say a lot?
supercalifragalisticexpialidocious

17. Who told you he/she loved you last?
;)

18. Last furry thing you touched?
Hmmm... Well, funny question actually...

19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
Oh mate I'm on serious crack, marijuana, colt45 & two zigzags.

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
What?? In this technological age of digital cameras?

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
12.

22. Your worst enemy?
my POA file.

23. What is your current desktop picture?
hillsong team

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
Okay, give me 5 minutes.

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly?
AT THIS POINT, I WOULD HAVE TO STRESS TO SHEENA THAT FLYING IS OBVIOUSLY A BETTER CHOICE, DUE TO THE FACT THAT YOU WOULD PROBABLY ALREADY BE ABLE TO EARN A MILLION BUCKS FLYING AROUND ALL DAY TO THE AMUSEMENT OF THE PUBLIC. AND THINK OF THE TRAVEL FARE SAVED!

26. Do you like someone?
Yupps =P

27. The last song you listened to?
Raise Your Hands - Bon Jovi

28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet?
You know, dad actually might be worth saving...

29. If you could punch one person in the face who would it be?
Joakim Gomez ^^

30. What is the closest object to your left foot?
My right foot.

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Ok, I shall ignore all the shit in the world right now and just be very content of my life now.

Blogger's server was kind of down when I tried my best to log in for the past 2 days. And I think now it starts to get better already. On sunday, supposed to accompany mum for shopping. However, I was kind of impatient and I called up aloysius. He came and meet me up and we left her. We went to a club nearby and check out their facilities. Happened to pass-by an archery academy and we decided to give it a try. Yupps. Not that bad, just that it's tiring, that's all..

Yesterday, went to meet up vincent and danny for supper. They make me come to a sense that I shall enjoy my life now and forget about all those sorrows..

On a sadder note, the stench of death is everywhere. steve irwin- the famous crocodile hunter and one of my heroes died tragically today while shooting a documentary, apparently stabbed by a stingray's barb. He will be sorely missed. But his legacy will live on! You were the greatest steve!!! May you find peace with the lord.

And one of the maintainance guys at warren today was killed in the 2nd hole water hazard when he accidentally drove some heavy machinery into the pond and drowned to death. Apparently someone tried to save him but he was struggling so hard that he had to let go for fear of his own life. Divers went in and only found his body 2 hours later. My condolences to his family.

I'm so bored and decided to take this quiz which is formally on timmy's blog!

1. Favourite day?
A day on 2005's calendar

2. Favourite moment?
When I'm trying hard to handle the 2 wheel ride with another girl behind me.

3. Favourite time of the day?
4:00am? Cos it is the quietest moment of the day.

4. Favourite word?
erp....

5. Favourite phrase?
Spread the lovin' !

6. Favourite food?
Not specific.. As long as it's something meant to be eaten, it's fine with me. And definitely not a pen cap! lolls.

7. Favourite drink?
Arabica white coffee without sugar added.

8. Favourite boy?
Aloysius! My best pal ever! He's going to jakata today and... Bon voyage!

9. Favourite girl?
Hmmm... Jerena aka gao de? Cos she never fail to cheer me up when I'm feeling down. hahas.

10. Favourite sport?
When you see a man having difficulty sinking a small white ball into a hole in a bloody big field which is normally 7 km long, that's my game.

11. Favourite place?
Florida! Somewhere between Ft. Pierce Vero beach and Palm beach.

12. Favourite colour?
Ferrari Red.

13. Favourite car?
Mercedes CLS 350

14. Favourite movie?
Well, tough question. I seldom watch movie nowadays.

15. Favourite song?
Not specific too cos I listen to almost every song and I love them all!

16. Current dressing?
Billabong boardshorts and an Op tee

17. Current height?
186cm!!! 36 cm difference compared to the... the.. the.... Ai ya... Jerena la.. Hahas.

18. Current weight?
As long as I'm still in the 2 digit's category that's fine.

19. Current status?
Who is Ayumi Hamasaki?

20. Current desktop background?
Some blue colour wallpaper with wordings on it.

21. Current location?
Do I even need to type out my home address?

22. Current song's playing?
Tell Tell Bozou

23. Current web page?
... How am I suppose to post this if my page is http://google.com? zzzz....zzzz..

24. Current messenger's display name?
- # d`fallen / what lovin` ? / and i've got no idea how I feel about you at this moment

25. Current amount of money in pocket?
.... 2 digit. . . . .

26. Last person who you talk to on messenger?
Jerena Tan.... ?

27. Last person who sms you?
Aloysius! Telling me that he's on his way to the airport.

28. Last person who called you?
Mr Kim Ji Sung, Sean.

29. Last place you gone to before where you're now?
The livng room.

30. And, any last word?
I wonder who's the one who started off with this quiz first...

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I really hate my present state now. It really sucks, a big time. Everything's just so screwed.

I think my myopia is getting worse. It's funny, I can't see clearly even with my specs on.

Feeling rather high today. I mean, hyper. The teacher distribute our english paper back. To my surprise that I actually make it. However, jerena failed by one mark. Her face was like... Disappointed? So I took and look through her paper, searching pathetically for one single mark. However, THANK GOD, I found that mark for her and she's able to pass. Hahas!

Anyway, officially got back my POA script today. Making an amendment, I wasn't scoring as high as 93, ( that's what chun hui told me ), but an average mark of 83% for the past 5 tests. *woohoo~~ I'm the leader among the Sec 3 express!* Alright, back to the track. Gotten full marks for the structured question, 33/33, and 6/10 for that bloody MCQs. It just sucks, big time. Whatever.

After school, When we're about to leave for lunch, wee teck and robin were having conflict. Not siding anyone, but I personally think that wee teck shouldn't said or did that. So after which, wee teck left home. Whatwhatwhatever. Dine in KFC. lolls. Saw Fanny again. Second time in this month I suppose. Chat a bit, just a bit. After lunch, went to Arena CC for golf and robin came along too. I dragged him to play. I mean, ask him to try. Not that bad actually, at least he didn't miss any ball. A moment later, Charisse and shu hui came. And this time, I acknowledged shu hui! lolls. Quite surprise la. Charisse asked me to guide her.. But I don't think I did anything to benefit her yeah? lolls. So sorry about it. Just before leaving to the main clubhouse, I saw a BROKEN chair at the corner. That reminds me of shu hui. *she broke a wooden chair last time and I saw it! We're arguing abt this matter in our testimonials.* I asked her to look at it and she gave me that innocent look. Hahas. Well, no offences about that.

Tomorrow is teacher's day celebration and I promised some of my primary schools' friends that I'll be going back to my primary school. Kinda of miss them and miss my primary school life too.

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Hey everyone.. It has been a long time since I previously blog. Well, life is really great for me recently.

Last Saturday, have had dinner with some close friends at changi village. Wishing more of this to come, providing we have got the time.

And today, got back some of the common test papers. Pretty please with the results.

Here are some papers which I've taken back:

. Mother tongue // 78
. Mathematics // A bloody 62
. Combined sciences // 82
. Combined humanities // *ahem 47 ahem*
. Principle of accounts // 93 *lalala~~*

After school, went for lunch with Jerena, Candis, Wan Ting, Robin and Vincent. But frankly speaking, I didn't want to go actually cos I still have stuffs to attend to after school. However, promised jerena that I'll be going. So I've got no choice but to jolly well make my way there. Hahas.. Not that bad actually... Was crapping with jerena while eating the pizza. And today was the first time that I'm so sick of pizza.. Too much of it I suppose.. Was playing with jerena... I pour lots of cheese powder on her pizza and she pour lots of chilli powder on mine. Whatever. And got once she tried the tabasco sauce and her facial expression had a 180 degrees change. Hahas...

After that, jerena left for tuition and candis..... WHERE DID CANDIS GO?!?! Hahas.. The rest of us went for bowling.. Lots of enjoyable moments and I shall not state them all here. All the best to everyone and of cos, hope I can pass all the other subjects.

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Ok, now that my temperature and brainwaves have returned to some state of normalcy, I shall try to blog peacefully again... *breathe*

However, I've got a doubt in my mind right now..

"Why should I wanna be happy or even content with the miserable state of my existence right now?"

My life's a fucking mess...

My golf swing is just screwed. I'm absolutely fed up with everything about my golf now. I played like a whore in the pesta sukan and the seemingly neverending slump I'm in continues. Actually, its been dreadful the whole damn year long.

My only consolation, at least people care. Everyone's been really supportive and encouraging but I'm hoping that it turns around quick or I might just give up this stupid game I love for good, and that would be equivalent to hitting rock bottom then finding a shovel...

My life's just been a trainwrek over the last month and stuff that I've gone through over the last week is the last thing I need.

I'm about 1 degree short of either suicidal or homicidal...

I need to get my life back!

For whatever it is now, everything in the past can't be back again. Those happy moments I used to have.. As for now, I'm blasting music like nobody business... Current track: Dancing Alone - Ashlee Simpson.

I 've just finish some writing... Here it is:

Wanting,
lusting,
to be held,
to be loved,
to feel warmth,
to feel your beating heart.
Wanting to be sheltered from the cold,
heartless winds.
Falling into invisible arms;
into an abyss of love.
Wishing,
hoping,
that my desires will be filled;
my desires of loving warmth.
Wanting to be held,
comforted,
loved.
Dreaming of passionate embraces,
of tender kisses,
loving words,
romantic nights.
Waiting for my undying love to be recovered again.

Alright, gotten back my mother tongue paper today.. Hmmm... Not too bad.. At least gotten an A1... Jerena's having flu.. Her voice was extremely hilarious, and was cute at the same time. Listen to her speaking from 1 to 10 if you doubt what I'm saying right now.. *GAO DE.. No offence ya? ^-^* Hahas.. Well, will be leaving Mr Blogspot alone now.. All the best to everyone.

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