Ok, now that my temperature and brainwaves have returned to some state of normalcy, I shall try to blog peacefully again... *breathe*

However, I've got a doubt in my mind right now..

"Why should I wanna be happy or even content with the miserable state of my existence right now?"

My life's a fucking mess...

My golf swing is just screwed. I'm absolutely fed up with everything about my golf now. I played like a whore in the pesta sukan and the seemingly neverending slump I'm in continues. Actually, its been dreadful the whole damn year long.

My only consolation, at least people care. Everyone's been really supportive and encouraging but I'm hoping that it turns around quick or I might just give up this stupid game I love for good, and that would be equivalent to hitting rock bottom then finding a shovel...

My life's just been a trainwrek over the last month and stuff that I've gone through over the last week is the last thing I need.

I'm about 1 degree short of either suicidal or homicidal...

I need to get my life back!

For whatever it is now, everything in the past can't be back again. Those happy moments I used to have.. As for now, I'm blasting music like nobody business... Current track: Dancing Alone - Ashlee Simpson.

I 've just finish some writing... Here it is:

Wanting,
lusting,
to be held,
to be loved,
to feel warmth,
to feel your beating heart.
Wanting to be sheltered from the cold,
heartless winds.
Falling into invisible arms;
into an abyss of love.
Wishing,
hoping,
that my desires will be filled;
my desires of loving warmth.
Wanting to be held,
comforted,
loved.
Dreaming of passionate embraces,
of tender kisses,
loving words,
romantic nights.
Waiting for my undying love to be recovered again.

Alright, gotten back my mother tongue paper today.. Hmmm... Not too bad.. At least gotten an A1... Jerena's having flu.. Her voice was extremely hilarious, and was cute at the same time. Listen to her speaking from 1 to 10 if you doubt what I'm saying right now.. *GAO DE.. No offence ya? ^-^* Hahas.. Well, will be leaving Mr Blogspot alone now.. All the best to everyone.

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