Finished my National Inter-School Golf Competition held at Seletar Country Club... Quite a major junior event as there were many school taken part. I played a 77 (+5) today... Hahas! However, didn't manage to win anything... Haiz... Okay guys, I'm official sick now... That idiot weather, out the hot sun with a sudden drizzling and the hot sun again... Freaking freaky freak! Hahas... I'm tanned... Hahas... Gotta rest now... Still having activities tomorrow... Good luck guys in the team events on Thursday... All the best!
Tanglin boys, win something back!

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Sorry guys for not updating the blog for a long time.. I'm very busy due to the tight schedule... 6 more days to the competition... I'm preparing and practicing hard for the competition... It's kind of significant to me and at the same time, I must make my school proud. Imagine, during the morning assembly, the principal speaks proudly into the microphone, "I'm glad to announce that one of our student came in *wadever* in the recent inter-school golf competition... He's the only golfer in our school and blah blah blah..." Hahas... I'm some kind of ambitious... Wadever... As for now, I really have got no time to do other stuff... I even have to help a friend to write a testimonial using my phone instead of the computer... Pathetic yeah?

Examinations were over... Time to relax and at the same time, pull up our socks and buck up... Got back the results for all subjects except for English... Well, how to describe... Hmmm... For the subjects I've pass, I passed with flying colours. Those I've fail, I failed them badly... What the..... ..... ..... .... ..... ...... However, I'm surprise that I actually score a distinction for my Physics and Chemistry... Impressive yeah? ^^

Also, I'm in good mood recently... Ya... I know I gotta stop the endless thoughts for her... Which then could makes my life better... Fallin` in love with someone is so damn damn damn hurt ya? I would rather play golf for 12 hours everyday and do whatever that I wanted to do in the holidays than having sorrowful thoughts for her... I really can't go on like this. No matter how much I do or say or show or whatever it could be done, I know the outcome will still be the same. The outcome will be bloody "cruel" I guess? But no matter how hurt or cruel it is, it's better than longing for something which will never ever turn out to be in the entire life. Some kind of sick and tired for this kind of feelings.

Somehow or rather, I'll get use to the days without her.

* My wishes for the time-being:

. Forget my deepest love I ever had with her.
. Finish in Top 10 in the upcoming competitions.
. Acheive better academic results in the next semester.

I'm kind of busy nowadays... Partially is because of the mid-year examinations... Study a little, slack a little... Play a little, rest a little... This is how my life's going now... After examinations, I'll be bashing golf balls like nobody business and jamming at the putting green the whole day to practice hard and get prepare for the tournaments in the coming holidays... Here are the schedule:

30-31/5
National Interschool Individual

5-8/6
Singapore Junior Open @ Keppel

13-17/6
OCC Junior Invitation


As for now, I'd relax and relax and relax and get prepare for the rest of the papers... By then I'll give my fullest attention to golf... Train hard and play hard... Hahas... I'm missing the competitive atmosphere on the course!!! All the best to everyone... ^^

It was such a peaceful day today, nothing special was up... It's just a daily routine. School and back home...

Had mathematics exam earlier on.. I glad to say that it's not a difficult paper and I guess I handle it quite well.. * claps * Hahas... But the damn story started with the social studies paper... It's not that difficult actually, however, my mind was totally blank when dealing with the "Sources".. Hahas...

Have a light lunch with Chin Keong after school, whereas we were going to IMM I supposed. However, we board the wrong bus... We alighted at West Mall instead.. Hahas... Walked a few rounds round the shopping mall and I suggested to watch a movie instead of walking aimlessly there. We went up to the cinema and bought the tickets.

After watching the "dramatic" movie, we stroll a little and head back home. When I'm on the bus, I saw a pair of couple sitting in front of me... They looked familiar... And I took a closer look, they were my primary school friends! Hahas.. It's kinda weird to see them sitting side by side as they were enemies during my primary school times... Real enemies! They will start to yell at each other if they come face to face in school... But now it's kind of shock to see them together.. Hahas... This prove that as time past, things will change dramatically... Everything around us will change... But what matters is whether we realize it or not... That's a very important point...

I'm now trying my best to walk out the steps which your shadow had cast over, trying to shut the door and keep you out of my mind... It's difficult I guess, but I think I can forget you finally, totally, thoroughly one day... As for now, I think I'll still walk through the darkest side of the road alone everyday till the day I'm able to pull you out of my life.

I was out with PY yesterday. We were talking and talking and talking and suddenly, PY brought Jeslyn into the whole story. This makes me looked back on the past again.

I know Jeslyn through a friend at Primary 6. That time, we were actually out for movie.. And this Yi Wei brought her along. After introducing ourselves, the 3 of us went to McDonalds for lunch before the movie starts. We bought our own food, sat down and began to eat. While eating, she reach out for chilli sauce and accidently hit the drinks and spilled onto me... Hahas.. She was like, "OMG!" and kept apologising. However of course, it's okay... I was thinking, we would be watching the movie and in the cinema soon and it will be damn dark. No one would notice the "drinks" on my shirt. Hahas.. In the cinema, she sat besides me and keep looking at me. And when I turned and looked at her, she turned back and looked at the screen. Hahas... Then, she suddenly took out her phone and type "Sorry!" and show to me. Then I took out my phone and type "It's okay.." and show to her... We were chatting by passing messages like this throughout the movie and we did exchange our phone number.. Though that was the first time we met each other, but it seems like we've know each other for a long time.

From that day onwards, we chat through SMS everyday. We seems to have endless things to talk about. Hahas.. Impressive huh? Later on, we start to speak to each other through phone almost every night. Hahas.. One day, I was bored-to-death at home and I was thinking of going out. The first people that comes to my mind was her. So i called and ask her out. Guess what, she was also bored at home. So we went out together. Can't really remember where we gone to... After that day, we went out almost everyday.. HAHAS!!! It's like, we had already finished our PSLE... We also have got nothing to do... So go out lor... Hmmm... I think we had gone to everywhere around Singapore.

I remember there's a time, we went to the beach to cycle. After cycling, we sat along the beach and chat.. Hahas... Then I took this picture out of fun:

This was the only picture I have of her and I love this picture very much. Gorgeous right? Blue wave, sandy beach and a "lonely" girl.. Hahas...

We were together then. Although we know that we will not have a happy ending as we had posted to different and we'll be facing lots of new people in our life. But we had put in our best effort into this relationship. Of course, studies makes the priority. I afraid that our relationship will affect our studies. That's why we ended. She agreed with me too...

At first, we still keep in touch with each other. But not long after, she changed her phone number while I'm away from Singapore I supposed, I believed that she did informed me the new number.. But I think I didn't received as I'm at overseas. I lost contact with her... Haiz... I really wonder how she's doing now... Fine? Really hope so...

*Jeslyn, if you happen to see this post, please SMS or call me ok? We have had a long time never see each other le.. Really wonder how's your life recently. Wish you all the best in everything you do... By the way, my number is still remain unchange. So... Hmmm... Contact me ok? =)

After so many things happened in the past few weeks, I finally realized something. I don't need anyone in my life. I don't need friends. Well, I guess I can handle everything by myself.

I've a goal for my life now. I want to keep you out of my mind. By then I'll forget you slowly bit by bit and hopefully, entirely. I've tried my best to forget you. However, I failed. Perhaps, I'm loving you more and more each day. I know things can't go on like this. I'll definitely go crazy one day.

Saw you being so depressed on my birthday, I guess that guy really hurted you deeply? I'm blaming myself, I really have got no idea to cheer you up! I'm stupid, I'm an idiot. I can't even make someone I love impress. Haiz... But I really don't know what else can I do and say.

It's okay to ruin my birthday.. I don't mind... As long as you're happy. But I guess I won't celebrate my birthday ever in my life again.

I'll try to treat you as a friend from now onwards. However, I think my feelings for you will never change and will never fade away.. Not now, not in the future. Memories may fade, I'll stay. All alone I shall stay. And from tomorrow onwards, I'll train hard for my golf. That's the only passion I have towards now. I'll prove myself by finishing within Top 10 in the upcoming Inter-School Golf Competition. And I will not neglect my studies also. I'll try my best to get into Top 10 position in the class too... Well, the motivation for these commitment is you. And you'll keep me going forever.

For you, I'll achieve it. Thanks for giving me the sweetest memories in my life. No one shall enter my life again. You'll be the last. You're all I never forgotten. Take care and all the best in everything you do. Hope you have a happy ending with him.

Look at this:



OMG! Pang Yong aka Pyongyang aka Wu3 Mao3 was playing the children's video game! Hahas... This picture was taken by my phone, my new phone! Hahas.. I bought it a few days ago. The image quality of the phone is quite impressive? Click on the picture for larger view... ^-^

Blog again tomorrow. Examinations are drawing nearer.. Well, I'm now having a hard time figuring out the cute little words on the pages of Chemistry and Physics textbook. =)

forget it. Forget all about it.