So what for showing me that you care when you actually not? Forget it.

We have the rights to love someone. When you love someone, the feeling is just so difficult to describe. Sweet at times, pain at times. Worried at times, can't be bother at times. You'll definitely feel hurt when the one you love is cold to you. That's for sure. And you'll not really be impressed when the one you like cheer you up. Cos you know you've not gotten over him or her. It's just something temporary. It's like, so near yet so far..?

All that i'm asking for is spending time with you. Is that so difficult? Spending time to talk, to chat, to walk around or whatever. I just want to spend my time with you. Time frame isn't important. What really matter are the chances. I know i don't have much time left. I just afraid that i can't see you again. So i'll cherish every chance, every moment with you. I hope I could just turn away and pretend that i don't love you anymore. I think maybe this can makes me feel better. I'll never forget the times we talked about me and you, the things we do together forever. If I could turn back the hands of time, I'd still be holding on the wishes that you left behind. Cos here there's a picture of us. Together forever unfaded, unbroken.

Remember the day when *somebody* had his birthday's party at his home? I asked you to come along right? Remember? Remember what i told you that night? Remember? I did tell you my feeling for you. I did. But what happened in the end? I really regretted. I shouldn't have ask you to join us. I shouldn't. That's when the both of you first met i think... Because i asked you to join us. I regretted.. You know that? You know how hurt it was when i know that i'm doing such stupid things? It's because of me then the both of you get to know each other. Then the both of you... I'm so stupid. I shouldn't have let the both of you met in the first place.

One more thing. Jealousy. I'm jealous when i see you playing with other guys. Saw you beating one another, pinching, blah blah blah. Yes. I'm jealous. You told me the same things to other guys. Why can't you make it a secret between me and you? Why you can't just tell me the thing and not telling anyone else? I'm upset. Upset and jealous. You treat me equally like any other guys out there. Haiz. Forget it. When other guys' birthday, you'll prepare a gift for them... But mine? You didn't give me anything. Nope. I'm not asking for the gift. I'm not asking for it. But, i just think that other guys are much more luckier and fortunate than me. ( excluding that *someone* special ) They can receive a gift from you even though they ain't really familiar with you. But me? Am i someone you really really not familiar with? Am i? Forget it. Forget it. There's just nothing i can do, just nothing i can say, will things be the same in any other way?

Anyway, just to tell you, if you got nothing else left in your life, remember me. I'll always be there for you. I promise i'll give you the best that i can. I give you my word.

spread the lovin'

d`valentine