I heard someone said a very interesting sentence this morning. It goes, " If you are not serious about something, nothing can be done. "

However, I'm serious about you. How come I ended up with nothing?

I'm missing you every moment. It's like, I couldn't concentrate on anything else because you're the only element that's running through my mind. When I feeling low, I'll take out my phone and read every single SMS you sent to me. Even if I'm in the class.

When you're feeling low, I'll try my best to console you and to cheer you up again. How gorgeous you are when you smile... I swear I'll give up everything to see your smile again.

When I received your SMS, I somehow or rather feel heaven. It's so great to see your name on top of the message and I'll smile to myself which will makes me look like an idiot. You're humorous. The messages that you have sent to me makes me felt that I'm the most fortunate guy in the world. It's really bring me to the top of my pleasure when I read your messages.

However, when I'm feeling so great to see your messages, every a time a thought strikes me. Is it the same thing you sent to me also the similar thing you sent to other guys? I really wonder and I felt so jealous and dishearted.

You know I like you, but why would you tell me those things that I hated the most to know or even think of in my life? Why would you tell me the matters going on with you and him? You should know how I will feel when I know all that. It's so clear and definitely, hurt. I know you trust me and treat me as a physcologist who can give you advice when you felt so lost. I'm trying my best to solve all the problems of yours. But in the end, I'm an idiot after all. Why? I'm helping you to solve all those matters and I ended up with nothing, nothing at all... You and him were enjoying yourselves with each other while I'm alone here waiting like a fool.

Sometimes I reminisces, why should I help you? Why should I give you advises? It's not worth me doing that. I know I shouldn't be that selfish to hold you back towards your happiness.. You'll be the one who gain in the end and I'm the one who cry over you everyday. Do you know that? Would you ever know that? I just want you to know how I feel, that's all.

--- It's not me who makes your smile so sweet.
It's not me who walks with you under the stars romantically.
It's not me who touches your soul when you are alone
But it's me who love you the best that I know.

* Anyway, I've help you do something which you don't know. Hope that you will find out tomorrow.